These two things go hand in hand and not in a good way. Lies have consequences no matter if it is a little white lie or a big ass ridiculous lie. They will always come back and bite you in the butt. It causes people to become cranky and start arguing. It is overall wrong, there's no reason to lie. Tell the truth and if you screwed up then apologize easy as that right?
Well apparently some people never learned that lies are wrong and they continue to do this over and over and all it does is cause turmoil, anger and pain. I would love to shake the person that has upset the household today with their perpetual lies but sadly I know I wouldn't stop with just shaking. I'm tired of the lies, of the heartache that it brings the ones I love. If it could just go away and not return life would be easier but guess that's not the plan that has been laid out so far. Maybe one day the lies will catch up with the person and the ones I love will see how wrong the other person has been for them.
In truth and honor, adieu!
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
Irritation and its consequences
So for the past week the kiddo that I had the biggest bond with has been the most disinterested person to me. I'm not sure what is going on but it's already started to affect me in that I'm irritated to no extent. Yes she's a pre-teen and all that goes along with it but it just really grates on me that she's being so snotty toward me.
It's gone so far that I don't care about her right now, if she wanted to leave I wouldn't cry over it. It's not right to treat someone like crap when they've done everything to make your life something better. I've opened my home, my heart, my life to them and the thanks I get is little snotty looks, one word text responses and down graded from mother to step mother on fb. Yes the last one is petty but you know what, I do more for you than she has or will ever do for you because I'm there 24/7/365! I'm not flaking on you every other weekend because I want to go party or go to a casino and blow money that should be spent on raising you. No I'm at home, I make sure that things are planned to enjoy by all or at least by the kids. But apparently that doesn't matter because I'm not the birth mother, I'm not the one that gave her her former wedding band, which she wears around me and doesn't seem to think it doesn't bother the F out of me.
I'm spent, I'm done, I'm charred to a crisp. And while I chose to love you when I didn't have to, you should recognize this and respect it because the one that is supposed to love you sure isn't showing it.
So the consequence is this, I held back a fb pic posting because I didn't want to hurt them but after today I decided it was going up and so the below was posted. Thankfully I haven't received any negative response to it because I think if I did or if I do when I go home the "fit is going to hit the shan!"
To the readers be careful what you say and do because you might just be killing someone on the inside, adieu!
It's gone so far that I don't care about her right now, if she wanted to leave I wouldn't cry over it. It's not right to treat someone like crap when they've done everything to make your life something better. I've opened my home, my heart, my life to them and the thanks I get is little snotty looks, one word text responses and down graded from mother to step mother on fb. Yes the last one is petty but you know what, I do more for you than she has or will ever do for you because I'm there 24/7/365! I'm not flaking on you every other weekend because I want to go party or go to a casino and blow money that should be spent on raising you. No I'm at home, I make sure that things are planned to enjoy by all or at least by the kids. But apparently that doesn't matter because I'm not the birth mother, I'm not the one that gave her her former wedding band, which she wears around me and doesn't seem to think it doesn't bother the F out of me.
I'm spent, I'm done, I'm charred to a crisp. And while I chose to love you when I didn't have to, you should recognize this and respect it because the one that is supposed to love you sure isn't showing it.
So the consequence is this, I held back a fb pic posting because I didn't want to hurt them but after today I decided it was going up and so the below was posted. Thankfully I haven't received any negative response to it because I think if I did or if I do when I go home the "fit is going to hit the shan!"
To the readers be careful what you say and do because you might just be killing someone on the inside, adieu!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
To hear or not to hear?
That is the question of the day. I have extremely sensitive ears, people make fun that I can hear a mouse fart a mile away, which isn't true... I don't think. While this can be beneficial when you're trying to listen in on conversations, at other times I find it a definite downfall. Today I find myself distracted with other conversations that are going on around me, so much so that I started to type their conversation rather than the words that were flowing in my mind.
I do have these wonderful earbuds that are noise cancelling that I tend to put in when I really need to concentrate on my work, and yes there are sitting on my desk mocking me. Now some would venture to say, why would you want to block out the rest of the world or think of the people that have never enjoyed the sound of laughter. To them I would reply, please take some of my hearing and give it to those people!! I would gladly share some just so that they could hear for the first time ever. Unfortunately I don't think that's a possibility that science has mastered yet.
A friend of mine that I've known since elementary has had hearing aids since as long as I've known her and for probably longer than that. She would be the first person I would share with because I can only imagine not being able to hear. Course some days I think it would be nice just to not hear at all and let it return in the evening where I could hear the sounds of my kiddos arguing or laughing with each other. She will probably never read this and never know that I would offer her my hearing but at least it's out there in the ether for that someday if it ever comes.
With much appreciation to JVC for noise cancelling earbuds I bid my readers adieu!
I do have these wonderful earbuds that are noise cancelling that I tend to put in when I really need to concentrate on my work, and yes there are sitting on my desk mocking me. Now some would venture to say, why would you want to block out the rest of the world or think of the people that have never enjoyed the sound of laughter. To them I would reply, please take some of my hearing and give it to those people!! I would gladly share some just so that they could hear for the first time ever. Unfortunately I don't think that's a possibility that science has mastered yet.
A friend of mine that I've known since elementary has had hearing aids since as long as I've known her and for probably longer than that. She would be the first person I would share with because I can only imagine not being able to hear. Course some days I think it would be nice just to not hear at all and let it return in the evening where I could hear the sounds of my kiddos arguing or laughing with each other. She will probably never read this and never know that I would offer her my hearing but at least it's out there in the ether for that someday if it ever comes.
With much appreciation to JVC for noise cancelling earbuds I bid my readers adieu!
Thursday, August 9, 2012
My bad!
So wow, yeah totally haven't posted in ages *takes ruler and smacks hand* Sorry!!! Guess I've just not been insane crazy about something lately. Although I'm sure if I think back there probably was something small that I blew out of proportion.
Kiddos returned from 3 weeks away from us, by the 3rd week I was all "man do they have to come back" lol. My honey and me went out to dinner before they returned and while we both were glad to have them back we both enjoyed having our time together alone. Not that we did anything spectacular but we at least got to be just us without the hustle.
I could rant about the weight that all 3 kids gained while away due to a horrible dietary management where they were, yes I'm a mother that doesn't allow tons of sweets and such in the house and you may think omg she's so mean. But when you know that both their father and birth mother are overweight you know that you have to watch this stuff for them because no one else is going to. The eldest gained 16 pounds, yes 16!! In three weeks, groans, I could just kill because I know she's going to have a hard time getting it off, she's pretty dang lazy. *side note, yes I know I'm overweight and yes I am doing something about it so yes I can rant lol* Hopefully with school starting in 2 weeks she will get kicked into gear as being a Fish this year and doing athletics we'll see the weight come back off, till then--- NO MORE SUGAR!!
Other than that we've just been doing our standard, eat, sleep, work. Boring!!! I'm ready for a day off and it just isn't coming fast enough.
Till the next rant, adieu!
Kiddos returned from 3 weeks away from us, by the 3rd week I was all "man do they have to come back" lol. My honey and me went out to dinner before they returned and while we both were glad to have them back we both enjoyed having our time together alone. Not that we did anything spectacular but we at least got to be just us without the hustle.
I could rant about the weight that all 3 kids gained while away due to a horrible dietary management where they were, yes I'm a mother that doesn't allow tons of sweets and such in the house and you may think omg she's so mean. But when you know that both their father and birth mother are overweight you know that you have to watch this stuff for them because no one else is going to. The eldest gained 16 pounds, yes 16!! In three weeks, groans, I could just kill because I know she's going to have a hard time getting it off, she's pretty dang lazy. *side note, yes I know I'm overweight and yes I am doing something about it so yes I can rant lol* Hopefully with school starting in 2 weeks she will get kicked into gear as being a Fish this year and doing athletics we'll see the weight come back off, till then--- NO MORE SUGAR!!
Other than that we've just been doing our standard, eat, sleep, work. Boring!!! I'm ready for a day off and it just isn't coming fast enough.
Till the next rant, adieu!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Commuting through DFW
Let me start off with this- yes I was born and raised in Dallas, yes I learned to drive in Dallas and yes I will agree I am not the best driver in the world.
With that stated...I HATE F'ING DRIVING IN DALLAS!!!!! If I was ever given the option to never drive in Dallas or surrounding metroplex I would hop on that opportunity in a heartbeat. But sadly I need my vehicle and can't use public transportation in case of an accident or illness that could happen. Now if say some genius out there would invent the transporter that Star Trek used and could confirm that my molecules would not be scattered across the planet then and only then would I entertain that idea.
People that drive in Dallas are insane! They cut people off left and right, they don't allow merging *yes before I get the "well what about you?" speech please re-read the introduction* they speed when it's really not necessary, they ride your ass like it was the hottest piece in the world and the best part is - when someone thinks you're riding their ass and you get the obligatory break check. WTF!!! I wasn't riding your ass, I was trying to get your slow ass out of the fast lane cause you're going 5-10 miles under the speed limit with no one in front of you. Last I checked that was breaking the law, the police will pull you over for obstructing traffic!!! I'm just trying to keep you from having a ticket, I swear *smiles sweetly and rubs nose with middle finger only*
So yes today was an interesting ride into work, people trying to merge when there's no room and not even using their blinker. Come on people, manufacturers wouldn't install a blinker system if it wasn't needed! But again I'm not the perfect driver and yes I forget my turn signal at times but I try my hardest to use it. This afternoon homeward trip should be just as interesting. See I travel over 4 miles of bridge that extends over Lake Ray Hubbard (big freaking lake that attracts lots of boaters) and with the brand new extension of the tollway to I-30, this has made my life a LIVING HELL!!!! Spring/Summer/Fall is now know to me as death or don't expect to get home at a decent time. Everyone thinks they need to get to the lake right after work and that causes major congestion to me getting my happy butt home. Sigh....I dread driving anymore, it used to be pretty cool. I could drive wherever I wanted cause I was an adult and the road could take me anywhere. But now it is just a means to get me to work and home, preferably alive and unscathed.
Till next time, drive safe and watch out for white Honda Pilot's that have a Dallas Zoo pass sticker on the back :) Adieu!
With that stated...I HATE F'ING DRIVING IN DALLAS!!!!! If I was ever given the option to never drive in Dallas or surrounding metroplex I would hop on that opportunity in a heartbeat. But sadly I need my vehicle and can't use public transportation in case of an accident or illness that could happen. Now if say some genius out there would invent the transporter that Star Trek used and could confirm that my molecules would not be scattered across the planet then and only then would I entertain that idea.
People that drive in Dallas are insane! They cut people off left and right, they don't allow merging *yes before I get the "well what about you?" speech please re-read the introduction* they speed when it's really not necessary, they ride your ass like it was the hottest piece in the world and the best part is - when someone thinks you're riding their ass and you get the obligatory break check. WTF!!! I wasn't riding your ass, I was trying to get your slow ass out of the fast lane cause you're going 5-10 miles under the speed limit with no one in front of you. Last I checked that was breaking the law, the police will pull you over for obstructing traffic!!! I'm just trying to keep you from having a ticket, I swear *smiles sweetly and rubs nose with middle finger only*
So yes today was an interesting ride into work, people trying to merge when there's no room and not even using their blinker. Come on people, manufacturers wouldn't install a blinker system if it wasn't needed! But again I'm not the perfect driver and yes I forget my turn signal at times but I try my hardest to use it. This afternoon homeward trip should be just as interesting. See I travel over 4 miles of bridge that extends over Lake Ray Hubbard (big freaking lake that attracts lots of boaters) and with the brand new extension of the tollway to I-30, this has made my life a LIVING HELL!!!! Spring/Summer/Fall is now know to me as death or don't expect to get home at a decent time. Everyone thinks they need to get to the lake right after work and that causes major congestion to me getting my happy butt home. Sigh....I dread driving anymore, it used to be pretty cool. I could drive wherever I wanted cause I was an adult and the road could take me anywhere. But now it is just a means to get me to work and home, preferably alive and unscathed.
Till next time, drive safe and watch out for white Honda Pilot's that have a Dallas Zoo pass sticker on the back :) Adieu!
Monday, June 25, 2012
Weekend review
So this last weekend I did.....absolutely nothing!! Okay I did at least 3 loads of laundry and one load of dishes but other than that, nothing, nada, zip, zilch. Was it the greatness I remember of old when I had no kidds and no boyfriend? Not really, I think I'm so used to the go, go, go pace of the kids that this weekend sucked! Don't tell my boyfriend this though cause he did make breakfast and dinner for me which was nice to not cook for a change but I miss them.
Funny how 4 people can turn your world all the way upside down and change how you view life. I guess this isn't un-normal for all you mom's out there but for us new mom's it's craziness. I didn't get the chance to work up to the fast pace but was tossed into it without a net. I think I've done good, I mean they brush their teeth (at least the youngest does) and they eat good meals and not a bunch of junk. They do their chores and help out when asked without resistance. They made A's and B's overall last year. Yeah I did good :)
But now to deal with still 3 weeks of no kids...what should I do, what adventure should I work on while it's quiet in the house. I'm pooped out on movies, although 21 Jump Street comes out on DVD tomorrow so I am excited about that. I watched regular TV for too much this weekend that I'm bored. I "pinterested" too much as well and so I keep seeing the same stuff over and over. I've read some, but even that I'm bored with, yes an avid book reader and I'm bored, it's blasphamy I tell you. I miss my kids plain and simple. Maybe I will go next door and borrow their 3 kiddos, young ones and a newborn, to get my fix on.
Till tomorrow and my next insane thought, adieu!
Funny how 4 people can turn your world all the way upside down and change how you view life. I guess this isn't un-normal for all you mom's out there but for us new mom's it's craziness. I didn't get the chance to work up to the fast pace but was tossed into it without a net. I think I've done good, I mean they brush their teeth (at least the youngest does) and they eat good meals and not a bunch of junk. They do their chores and help out when asked without resistance. They made A's and B's overall last year. Yeah I did good :)
But now to deal with still 3 weeks of no kids...what should I do, what adventure should I work on while it's quiet in the house. I'm pooped out on movies, although 21 Jump Street comes out on DVD tomorrow so I am excited about that. I watched regular TV for too much this weekend that I'm bored. I "pinterested" too much as well and so I keep seeing the same stuff over and over. I've read some, but even that I'm bored with, yes an avid book reader and I'm bored, it's blasphamy I tell you. I miss my kids plain and simple. Maybe I will go next door and borrow their 3 kiddos, young ones and a newborn, to get my fix on.
Till tomorrow and my next insane thought, adieu!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
ITC the coveted girls only trophy
ITC = Inner Thigh Clearance
This has been a great goal of mine for too many years now, no I haven't achieved this great success so this post shall not be a rejoicing one sadly. Today as I walk through the office at work there are a few ladies that have received this trophy and I wonder to myself "do they even know what it would be like to have touching thighs?" Probably not would be the answer, they hold a coveted trophy and if I were them I sure wouldn't give it up.
So what prompted all of this, beyond it being in the back of my mind all the time, the pool! I was there last night with my girls enjoying a few laps since it wasn't overly busy. A neighbor of ours had come out and her kids were swimming but she was laying out, yes another trophy holder, so I went over to say hello and catch up on their house sale. She would never be a rude person and comment about her ITC trophy to anyone but me being insecure about my lack of said trophy realized that I need to get in gear and work on it quickly.
Here is my proposal- beginning tomorrow I will see if my oldest will wake up at 5:15 to get ready to exercise in the mornings before I have to get ready for work. She's expressed interest in working out during the summer before only because she doesn't want to get out of shape before athletics start up again for school. I'm hoping she will still want to do this despite the ungodly hour I will be getting her up at. But as the old adage says no pain, no gain and I don't want to gain anything back that I've already lost. I'll keep you readers abreast on how this goes and if I achieve this trophy, I know it won't be an overnight event so I don't have extreme high hopes.
To all the ladies that hold the ITC - pbbbttt!!! but congrats at the same time and maybe I'll be there someday. Adieu!
This has been a great goal of mine for too many years now, no I haven't achieved this great success so this post shall not be a rejoicing one sadly. Today as I walk through the office at work there are a few ladies that have received this trophy and I wonder to myself "do they even know what it would be like to have touching thighs?" Probably not would be the answer, they hold a coveted trophy and if I were them I sure wouldn't give it up.
So what prompted all of this, beyond it being in the back of my mind all the time, the pool! I was there last night with my girls enjoying a few laps since it wasn't overly busy. A neighbor of ours had come out and her kids were swimming but she was laying out, yes another trophy holder, so I went over to say hello and catch up on their house sale. She would never be a rude person and comment about her ITC trophy to anyone but me being insecure about my lack of said trophy realized that I need to get in gear and work on it quickly.
Here is my proposal- beginning tomorrow I will see if my oldest will wake up at 5:15 to get ready to exercise in the mornings before I have to get ready for work. She's expressed interest in working out during the summer before only because she doesn't want to get out of shape before athletics start up again for school. I'm hoping she will still want to do this despite the ungodly hour I will be getting her up at. But as the old adage says no pain, no gain and I don't want to gain anything back that I've already lost. I'll keep you readers abreast on how this goes and if I achieve this trophy, I know it won't be an overnight event so I don't have extreme high hopes.
To all the ladies that hold the ITC - pbbbttt!!! but congrats at the same time and maybe I'll be there someday. Adieu!
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