Irritation and its consequences

So for the past week the kiddo that I had the biggest bond with has been the most disinterested person to me. I'm not sure what is going on but it's already started to affect me in that I'm irritated to no extent. Yes she's a pre-teen and all that goes along with it but it just really grates on me that she's being so snotty toward me.

It's gone so far that I don't care about her right now, if she wanted to leave I wouldn't cry over it. It's not right to treat someone like crap when they've done everything to make your life something better. I've opened my home, my heart, my life to them and the thanks I get is little snotty looks, one word text responses and down graded from mother to step mother on fb. Yes the last one is petty but you know what, I do more for you than she has or will ever do for you because I'm there 24/7/365! I'm not flaking on you every other weekend because I want to go party or go to a casino and blow money that should be spent on raising you. No I'm at home, I make sure that things are planned to enjoy by all or at least by the kids. But apparently that doesn't matter because I'm not the birth mother, I'm not the one that gave her her former wedding band, which she wears around me and doesn't seem to think it doesn't bother the F out of me.

I'm spent, I'm done, I'm charred to a crisp. And while I chose to love you when I didn't have to, you should recognize this and respect it because the one that is supposed to love you sure isn't showing it.

So the consequence is this, I held back a fb pic posting because I didn't want to hurt them but after today I decided it was going up and so the below was posted. Thankfully I haven't received any negative response to it because I think if I did or if I do when I go home the "fit is going to hit the shan!"

To the readers be careful what you say and do because you might just be killing someone on the inside, adieu!

To hear or not to hear?

That is the question of the day. I have extremely sensitive ears, people make fun that I can hear a mouse fart a mile away, which isn't true... I don't think. While this can be beneficial when you're trying to listen in on conversations, at other times I find it a definite downfall. Today I find myself distracted with other conversations that are going on around me, so much so that I started to type their conversation rather than the words that were flowing in my mind.

I do have these wonderful earbuds that are noise cancelling that I tend to put in when I really need to concentrate on my work, and yes there are sitting on my desk mocking me. Now some would venture to say, why would you want to block out the rest of the world or think of the people that have never enjoyed the sound of laughter. To them I would reply, please take some of my hearing and give it to those people!! I would gladly share some just so that they could hear for the first time ever. Unfortunately I don't think that's a possibility that science has mastered yet.

A friend of mine that I've known since elementary has had hearing aids since as long as I've known her and for probably longer than that. She would be the first person I would share with because I can only imagine not being able to hear. Course some days I think it would be nice just to not hear at all and let it return in the evening where I could hear the sounds of my kiddos arguing or laughing with each other. She will probably never read this and never know that I would offer her my hearing but at least it's out there in the ether for that someday if it ever comes.

With much appreciation to JVC for noise cancelling earbuds I bid my readers adieu!

My bad!

So wow, yeah totally haven't posted in ages *takes ruler and smacks hand* Sorry!!! Guess I've just not been insane crazy about something lately. Although I'm sure if I think back there probably was something small that I blew out of proportion.

Kiddos returned from 3 weeks away from us, by the 3rd week I was all "man do they have to come back" lol. My honey and me went out to dinner before they returned and while we both were glad to have them back we both enjoyed having our time together alone. Not that we did anything spectacular but we at least got to be just us without the hustle.

I could rant about the weight that all 3 kids gained while away due to a horrible dietary management where they were, yes I'm a mother that doesn't allow tons of sweets and such in the house and you may think omg she's so mean. But when you know that both their father and birth mother are overweight you know that you have to watch this stuff for them because no one else is going to. The eldest gained 16 pounds, yes 16!! In three weeks, groans, I could just kill because I know she's going to have a hard time getting it off, she's pretty dang lazy. *side note, yes I know I'm overweight and yes I am doing something about it so yes I can rant lol* Hopefully with school starting in 2 weeks she will get kicked into gear as being a Fish this year and doing athletics we'll see the weight come back off, till then--- NO MORE SUGAR!!

Other than that we've just been doing our standard, eat, sleep, work. Boring!!! I'm ready for a day off and it just isn't coming fast enough.

Till the next rant, adieu!